May 12, 2012
by Malena
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God Forbid you be happy!

I’ve always been more comfortable around men than women, contradictory as it is! Reason being is, men usually speak their mind without wondering how it will make you feel. They are blunt. As feminine as I look, I surely don’t act like it very often. I say what I think (In business I say it with great discretion) always.  You see, I will not tolerate injustice when I see it, or laziness, or rampant sexual exploitation.

Developing a healthy self esteem is a strange thing. As soon as you learn to love yourself enough to stand up when someone insults you…you lose friends and family. What happened?
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May 6, 2012
by Malena
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Humans are irresponsible animals! WT?

I had a lovely day at the Kentucky Derby Day at Hollywood Park Yesterday. I sang the Nation Anthem (even with the helicopters in the background)
After, I hung out in the VIP lounge. When I went downstairs after a day of great fun and hilariously educating conversation only to find the place TRASHED top to bottom. Is it so damn hard to pick up your cup and throw it away? It’s that why human beings walk upright and have thumbs? To take care of ourselves and this planet? That bullshit line of
“It’s job security, leave it for the janitors”
Is not only insulting, it’s BULLSHIT. The staff of almost every company has been downsized. We MUST learn a new way of life to survive this recession and changing planet with limited resources. Here’s some facts to jar you into doing the right thing. After all, even my granola recycling self can always improve. Information is power.

May 4, 2012
by Malena
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Helpful hints by Isabel De Los Rios

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I don’t agree with everything, but this one is a winner. Someone recently told me we hold on to weight when we feel attacked. That explains why every divorcée gains weight during a divorce, including me. When you don’t want people to look at you; when you want to be invisible from the stigma your body hears you. This article goes well with my psychic diet. I also recommend The Abundance Book to keep your head straight about money. Stress makes you poor and fat. Trust me. hahaa I am healing from both right now. I’m happier than I’ve been in a long time, yes, even with my size. Once you begin to accept yourself and your outer conditions, change begins to occur.

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April 7, 2012
by Malena
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But what will they think of me?

You have to look beyond the external to see the gem that lies within.

I’ve always been considered a weirdo, a nerd, a dramatic fashionista and yes, crazy. I don’t care about fitting in or being in style. A lot of people do care. They care so much that they lose themselves in trying to fit in. I tried to fit in once. I was in 7th grade. I wore the right clothes and did everything the way the IN crowd did. I felt terrible and they still didn’t accept me, even in my hideous penny loafers. That’s when a light came on in my head and I thought, “people will always find something to bitch about. Why not make yourself happy because those people will never be happy anyway.”  They find ‘where your goat is tied’ and they poke at that. Everyone knew I was sensitive about my weight, so they made fun of me, still do. It hurts less and less as the years go by and those people just get more and more negative.

Like a flower, I want to grow and help others grow. Yes, I have some extreme hobbies…I dress up in leather and sing sexy songs, I model sexy clothes on occasion and I get hired to play murderers, witches, cops, etc. on screen. I design bitchen edgy clothes. I’m very opinionated, meaning what’s right is right and what’s wrong is wrong. I call it like I see it. I don’t wuss out and pretend everything is fine if it isn’t. If there is a problem, I want to help solve it.

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February 16, 2012
by Malena
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The words I live by

These quotes remind me of my daily life.

“true masculinity is the knowledge and ability to know when to raise the sword, when to cut with it, and when to sheath it. True masculinity also knows when to hold the shield instead of the sword when confronted by a foe. Raise the sword and say stop, don’t hit that child again. Don’t come across the line I draw in the sand, on the carpet, on my body, or in my soul. Do not call me names. Do not push me beyond my limits. Cease.”

“The archetypal masculine, whether found in men or women, knows when to swing a sword, raise a shield, protect, say no. They carry both sword and shield with them wherever they go and grieve over any wound they inflict and mourn any loss they suffer. The true masculine is the true warrior who grieves the fact that swords and shields are a necessary part of life.”

I guess my soul is a man. Whatever I am, I am proud to have learned courage.

Love you all so much!
Malena

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December 14, 2011
by Malena
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Self Esteem on a hanger

I went through my storage unit the other day, as I’m getting ready to sell things for my favorite charity, The Women’s Shelter. As I looked through the many wardrobe boxes of clothes, I remembered how insecure I was, even wearing a size 4 in 2009. Now the thought of my self esteem on a hanger is silly to me.
 These last 2 years have changed me. I no longer worry what other people think. I’m happier than I’ve been in years, even though I’ve been fighting an extreme illness and I’ve gotten “chubby” as some idiots have called me.

At my darkest hour a few months ago, I had to ask myself if I wanted to let everyone’s comments affect my self esteem. Beauty was inside, not just outside. Yes, my hair was falling out like crazy and my body was puffing up more by the day. I didn’t feel too sexy as I fought for my life. To make things worse, the drugs I HAD to be on ruined my memory, my hair and my looks. I was trying to hard to keep my good spirits up. The only thing that seemed to go up was my weight. Now, I am finally getting better after years of fighting. I still have a long way to go, but I am actually thankful this happened to me and not some other woman. I always recover fast (self esteem wise) and I’m tough. I got to see who my real friends were and who dumped me. Who called after not seeing them for 10 years and who stopped calling, even though they knew I was deathy ill. Some people didn’t believe me and chose to think stupid things. I learned I couldn’t change what people thought. I could only change how I reacted to it.

Now I can just laugh when people say I’m fat and not let it affect my self esteem. I know everyone has their type and I am still beautiful even at a size 12 with MUCH less hair. I still get asked to sing and act and yes, even model! That shows me my personality IS good enough without wearing a 4! Yes, I will get back down to a size 8 again, which is perfect for me at 6 feet…but in the mean time, I think it is super important to love the skin I’m in RIGHT NOW!  Learn to love your body and your life and your outlook will change…no one else’s opinion matters.

Love to you all!

Malena

November 20, 2011
by Malena
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Little things that mean the world…

"We are so into our own lives that we forget how blessed we are"

I have had the pleasure of working a few really cool showbiz jobs the last few weeks. My run around car was loaded to the hilt with costumes and boxes.  It was raining today and I stopped to get some videos on my way home. I noticed a homeless old man shivering under the 7-11. I had some extra cash in my wallet from working. I said, in my broken Italian/Spanish, “I will go to the car and get some money for you in a minute” He understood and started talking a mile a minute in Spanish. As I got my videos, I went to my car and got 5 bucks to give to him. In LA, you never know if a homeless person is really homeless, but this guy wasn’t high or drunk and he looked so cold and sad. As I gave him the $5 I said in English, “Sorry it’s not more, but it might help with food.” He didn’t understand but he grabbed me close for a hug and started to cry. I mean really cry. I hugged him back, telling him I knew how it felt to be homeless and there are people in the world like me who love him. When he called me “Madonna Maria” I started to cry too… Continue Reading →

November 17, 2011
by Malena
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Malena’s Psychic Diet

Here after a few years, pounds, and heartaches is my updated and revised “psychic diet”.  Please enjoy my new introduction and the first two chapters. Next week I’ll post another chapter or two, so please come back.

Welcome to all of you that have found me through Spirit Magazine. I look forward to our journey together. Please comment publicly, anonymously, or send me an email to let me know a little about you and your struggle.

Let’s build healthier, happier lives together.

With love,

Malena

to the introduction

October 19, 2011
by Malena
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Hello world!

Welcome to my new website.  I am an intuitive counselor. I have done readings on America’s Next Top Model, The Travel Channel, Bravo, E! and in other media forms such as magazines, etc.  I have worked with law enforcement and private corporations.

I would like to explain how my intuition works. I am not a tarot card reader. I don’t need divination tools to read a person or situation. This is how a general reading works …  a client emails or calls me.  I ask them to send me a photo or a word or a name to start looking into.  My intuition starts bringing up names, events, timelines, and possible outcomes about that person or thing. I’ll ask the client to ask specific questions about the subject they are inquiring about.  If it’s a person, I’ll usually get the physical description in my head and tell them what I see to find out if I am on the right track.

A reading is like a dance between two people… Continue Reading →